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Episode 52 – Ask Greywolf

On today’s episode I answer some questions sent to me …

 
Music on today’s show is from Featherscale, Laura Powers, Bone Poets Orchestra and Emerald Rose.

Enjoy! … Brightest Blessings 🙂

Episode 51 – It’s About Waves …

On today’s episode I talk about the element of Water and share a great interview with Blake and Gwain from the “Broadcasts from the Cove” podcast …

 

You can find Blake and Gwain at : http://broadcastsfromthecove.podbean.com/

and on Facebook at: https://www.facebook.com/BroadcastsFromTheCove/

 
Music on today’s show is from Celtic Legend, Gwain Nighthawk (feat. Blake Octavian Blair) . Abney Park and Spiral Dance.

Enjoy! … Brightest Blessings 🙂

Ramblings #006 – Yuletide Blessings

Wishing Everyone a Blessed Solstice and Yule! …

Clip music is “Fires at Midnight” by Blackmore’s Night

Ramblings #005 – Of Endings … Of Thanksgivings…

Some thoughts and a state of the podcast address …

Clip music is “More than a Feeling” by Boston

… On Depression and Suicide

There is a shock and emptiness when someone you know and love is suddenly gone … and it takes time to process, to grieve …

For those who have taken their own life, their pain and their journey is over … and for those of us who stay and continue this life’s journey, we deal with the pain and loss and we live …

We try to understand why this happened, why did they leave, how could they be so “selfish”, what did I do, or didn’t do that could have changed this … there is the hurt, the emptiness, the anger …

So I’m writing this, first, for the living …

Nobody wants to talk about suicide … nobody wants to talk about depression … there seems to still be a taboo about the subject … people will mourn the death of a loved one, the shock of sudden loss, the sharing and the comforting of friends and family

… and then when everyone is alone, when there is no one to hold onto or to share, they will think about how this happened … because the subject of suicide is a taboo and people shouldn’t talk about it …

… Bullshit …

NOW is the time to talk about it !… it is a part of your loved ones’ life, not something to be hidden … you HAVE to talk about this surrounded by the ones you love!

If your loved one dies from Cancer, or heart attack, or stroke … you talk about it, right?

Depression is a Cancer! It is a disease … Suicide is a heart attack …

a fatal stroke …

The questions come up when we are alone…

“I wish I had known it was that bad…”

…Some of us have diseases in ourselves we don’t know about at this very minute … this is a part of life …

“How could they be so selfish …”

… it has NOTHING to do with being selfish, the person who takes their own life is the victim of their disease … we would never say “ They had a heart attack, how could they be so selfish …” … it may seem like a choice … but it’s not … suicidal ideology is a symptom of a disease … and when the depression and the pain become too great, your body says “ENOUGH” … and gives up …

“What if I had done this … or that …or listened more…”

…these are the questions we ask because we desperately try to understand … we need to rationalize … we need to explain … to blame … someone or ourselves for this …

No … just no …

… this is being struck by a car, this is a heart attack, this is something that NOBODY, not even the victim could stop …

People with Cancer go to doctors… get Chemo … get radiation … change diets and lifestyles and do EVERYTHING they need to do to get better …

… and die anyway …

You can do all the right things … get counseling, get medication, call the suicide help lines, be surrounded by friends and family that love and support you …

…and die anyways …

There is nothing to rationalize… you can’t blame yourself, others or the victim …

it just IS …

The cancer cells in a person’s body belong to that person … the pain is caused by their own cells … it’s a disease …

It’s the same with depression and suicide …

Some of us survive … I say “us” because I’ve been here … I have scars you can see … and many you can’t see … I battled this illness for years and there were several times I almost lost the battle … It was a long time ago, but it is a part of my life …

I survived …

not everyone does …

it’s a cancer …

I’m writing all of this because, earlier this week my brother-in-laws’ sister, Nora, took her own life …

… and it needed to be talked about …

Nora was a wonderful person who was loved and supported by her family and friends … she touched many lives and she fought hard to live … just because she lost her battle doesn’t mean it shouldn’t be talked about … she was a believer in suicide awareness and prevention programs and she wouldn’t want this buried under a rug …

There are a lot of resources out there and I’m going to list one …

If you are suffering from depression and are in crisis or just need to talk, call

1-800-273-TALK (8255)
This is the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline …

Nora was in a lot of pain, and she fought hard … she was loved and she will be missed greatly …

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Rest in Love, Nora Kathleen Devine … 3.3.1966 – 6.20.2016

Episode 50 – Shiny Red Button

On today’s episode I talk about Shiny Red Buttons and I have a wonderful interview with author Katrina Ray-Saulis …

 

You can find Katrina at: http://imaginekatrina.blogspot.com/
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Music on today’s show is from Wendy Rule, Gaia Consort, FeatherScale, and Winter in Eden.

Enjoy! … Brightest Blessings 🙂

 

 

 

Ramblings #004 – Happy New Year

Happy New Year !! …

A little about Perception and wishing you all a Happy New Year! 🙂

Clip music is “These are the Times” by STYX

Ramblings #003 – Samhain

Blessed Samhain!! …

Sharing a short horror story I wrote and wishing everyone a Happy Halloween and Blessed Samhain! 🙂

Clip music is “Wytches” by Inkkubus Sukkubus

A Story for a Sad Day :-(

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“Chapters” by Robert Webber Chipman

The old man lay propped up in bed looking out the hospital window when his nurse came in. The nurse smiled as she adjusted the monitors and tubes hooked up to him.

“How are you feeling today?” She asked …

“I’m feeling fine,” He said in a raspy voice, “…but I’m going to die today.”

Before the nurse could protest, he quickly said “No, no … it’s OK… everyone has their time and today is mine.”

He took a couple of labored breaths as the machines beeps and buzzed around him…

“I think about time a lot nowadays and about life in general … did I ever tell you about a cat I had when I was younger? I used to enjoy going to rummage and estate sales and I went to one at a farm nearby a long time ago … amongst all the treasures for sale was a sign which said “ free” and “cats” … which happen to be two of my favorite words … I was living alone in an 8 x 16 foot camper and thought some company would be nice so I went over to look.”

“They had a few dozen barn cats and the farm owners had to thin out the herd so they were giving them away … there were all different types of tabbys and shorthairs but it was a small tortoise shell kitty that rubbed up against my leg and wanted to come home with me. I picked her up and she had the prettiest blue/green eyes.”

“The farmers had named her Precious but that didn’t seem right … So I called her ‘Princess’ and that was her name from then on … I lived in that camper for three more years and when I would go to bed she would crawl up on my chest , curl into a ball and purr her way to sleep … she was a sweet girl.’

“For seventeen years her favorite pastime was sleeping in sunbeams … she would curl up next to me for some belly rubs and hours of purring … then one day she looked up at me and her beautiful blue/green eyes seemed to say ‘I’m feeling fine. But I’m going to die today.’”

The old man coughed a few times and took another breath and the nurse checked another monitor…

“I have had many pets, but I never forgot her … it’s like a favorite chapter of a book … the chapter ends, and it has to … or else the story can’t keep going on …”

He coughed again,

“… Chapters have to end… ” He smiled, “… but the story doesn’t …”

The old man closed his eyes as the alarms from the monitors sounded … he could hear the nurse calling for help and people rushing around, but he was OK … it was time to sleep.

….

His eyes opened … “What a weird dream…” he thought as Mama-cat started licking his head “… with beeps and alarms and…” , he stretched his paws out and the dream was forgotten. “Time to play” he thought and ran over to his brothers and sisters. He looked up as the door opened and several humans walked in … a little girl looked around the room and suddenly saw him. “That’s the one!” She said excitedly, “ Can we keep him!” and ran over to pick him up…

The parents smiled and said “Yes, you can keep him”…

She hugged the little kitten and looked into his face and said “ I’m going to call you ‘Prince’”

He curled up in her arms, smiled and started purring and thought “ So now I have a new human and a new name … and she has the prettiest blue/green eyes.”

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AUTHORS NOTE

We live and gather experiences on this journey of life and like a book we have chapters … some chapters are long, some are short … some chapters start out slow and some hit the ground running… each page is an important part of our individual stories… and some stories you wish could go on forever.

The details in this story of how I met my kitty, Princess, are true and the past 17 years have been a wonderful chapter in my life.

Today this chapter ended and her story and journey continues on the other side… I miss my Princess and hope that maybe in another story and in another time she can be my human and I can be her kitty …

R.I.P. little one …

Ramblings #002 – No Brakes !!

No Brakes !! …

…talking about a close call driving my car a couple weeks ago 🙂

Clip music is “I Can’t Drive 55” by Sammy Hagar

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